Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Anticipation and Impatience

First of all, here's a picture of the cookies I made with my fall cookie cutters. The cooler weather has really made it feel like fall, and I love it! I plan to make more cookies this weekend and finally use my Halloween cookie cutters.

I wanted to thank you all for the comments on my previous post. You all were right about how I need to "own" the pregnancy as my own. I've been thinking a lot about that and have made progress on that front. As suggested by N, I've been thinking about starting a blog for my family and RL friends where I can post updates and pics as things progress. I'm unsure how receptive my family will be from a technology point of view, but I know some will be comfortable with the idea of a blog. We'll see. At any rate, it will be a nice way for me and Husband to preserver the journey.

We are 8 weeks today. This time next week will have had our u/s and know what's going on in F's uterus! I hope desperately it's a good appointment. She's still feeling quite sick and tired, which I cling to though I know that doesn't necessarily mean everything is ok. I've been telling myself for weeks that I'd allow myself to believe, to hope, to get a little excited after the u/s. I've stuck with that. I haven't looked at clothes or furniture. The only acknowledgement I have made is to start researching daycare LOL! Even though I've tried to remain somewhat at arms length, I can feel myself relaxing more and more each week. I am so ready to be able to accept this and start planning, to get my head out of the sand. I haven't read a thing yet on planning or parenting or anything baby-related, which is very unusual for me. Please, please let me be able to make that transition. Please let our appointment go well. I'm so ready for it!

Have any of you been reading the series of articles on surrogacy in the St. Petersberg Times? I'm interested to know how others feel about the articles. I'm conflicted. It's a decent series and handles the topic pretty well overall and puts a human face on surrogacy via the surrogate. I'm a little bothered by the language used: professional surrogate, the IM contemplated "getting rid" of her current surrogate and egg donor, the constant emphasis on cost. The language just seems carelessly chosen, and I wonder at the motivation of the reporter and how much she delved into the surrogacy community before writing it. I wonder if it will do more harm than help the perception most people have of surrogacy.


Sue said...

The cookies look yummy! I can't believe you have to wait so long for your first ultrasound. I am keeping my fingers crossed for good news on the 28th.

N said...

ditto pp - adorable cookies and I can't believe you have to wait so long for the u/s! It's fun to see someone else getting into the season too. I just love it. :)

Hang in there - I know it's stressful waiting but in ALL likelihood everything will be perfect.

I haven't read the articles you mentioned - I'll look into it!

sara said...

Congrats on being 8 weeks! I can't wait to hear all about your ultrasound next week so you can see how your little one is growing :-) Yummy looking cookies by the way.

Duck said...

I'm glad you're beginning to relax, I'm so excited for you!

Samantha said...

I haven't read those articles, but I do remember seeing an article in Newsweek, maybe about a year ago, about surrogacy. At the time, I thought it was a pretty good article. I don't think the media realizes sometimes how those words and terms may slant a story.

Ellen K. said...

Mmmmm sugar cookies! They would go well with my morning coffee.

I'm setting up a baby blog for family and friends -- a pregnancy/baby blog would have been a good idea too.

niobe said...

I know how hard it is to truly believe or hope. If you can get there, wonderful! But, if not, maybe you can give yourself permission to just take things as they go. I know that's all I'm able to do.

Intending To Be Parents said...

Yay for 8 weeks! Hoping your u/s date gets here really really quickly because I am familiar with that anticipation (mixture of excitement and wanting to be sick would be the description of how I felt). I'm sending lots of positivity your way for fabulous u/s results so you can breathe a well-earned huge sigh of relief!
Those cookies sure do look good!