Thursday, February 14, 2008

Faith

First of all, Happy Valentine's Day! I hope everyone has a good one. Nothing says romance more than I spent the morning at the gynecologist's office waiting for my endo consultation. And I waited and waited and waited despite the fact that there was only one other patient in the waiting room, and my appointment was at 8:50. Oh well. I scheduled this appointment to discuss my endo, the constant spotting and lower back pain I have and to decide what we should do to best preserve my ovarian function before we cycle. Bottom line is that the doctor decided to keep me on the same BCPs I've been on so that we don't disrupt anything since I will cycle hopefully relatively soon (summer). I suppose that's ok. I've been taking BCPs continuously since December after I had horrible pain right after AF ended, but he wants me to have a withdrawal bleed. I'm a little nervous about that since I had such a bad time in December. I did get a new prescription for Tylenol 3, so I guess that was worth the $20 copay.

The friend of which I wrote in the previous post gave us an update on her situation. They took the baby home last night, but apparently things aren't looking good because hospice care is involved. I'm so glad they were able to take her home and have time with her there. My friend amazes me. She is so calm and strong. You never know what you will do in a situation until it is upon you, but if I were in her situation, I envision hysterical crying and shaking my fist at the sky. I am truly in awe of her. I think she gets it from her faith. I, on the hand, don't have a lot of faith. Well, I have faith that treatments won't work for us and that we'll fall on the wrong side of the odds, but I don't have what you would call religious faith. Sometimes I envy those who do. I would like to feel that there is someone whom I believe can be appealed to to help me and who hopefully has my best interests at heart. I wonder if I would feel less alone through all this if I had faith. I hope her faith continues to sustain her. She's going to need it.

4 comments:

niobe said...

So sad to hear about your friend.

I too wish I had faith.

scarredbellybutton said...

I feel the same way about faith. Those who have it seem to find it so comforting, I kind of feel like I'm missing out, but I am just not that kind of person.

Endo sucks.

I hope your friend copes ok, how terrible.

Samantha said...

I don't have that kind of faith either, so I can't tell you how to get it. I'm still thinking of your friend.

Angi said...

K - Great to "see" you too. I have actually read your blog before and totally didn't realize it was you! I have been wondering how you are - sounds like things are progressing well with the surrogate. It will be great to see you!!